According to the saga, I'll meet Jacob Black about ... now.
And I'll have to kiss him, yuck.

But hey, it'll save me from you, sweet darling Edward.
At least for awhile; after which I must start running again.

Two

Two days shy of my ideal sign;
Two steps on the edge of the line;
Two breaths from Cancer.

24 hours of darkness.

Dave Days is cute! (:

You, you're such a big star to me
You're everything I wanna be
But you're stuck in a hole and I want you to get out
I don't know what there is to see
But I know it's time for you to leave
We're all just pushing along
Trying to figure it out, out, out

All your anticipation pulls you down
When you can have it all,
You can have it all

So come on, come on, get it on
Don't know what you're waiting for
Your time is coming don't be late, hey hey
So come on
See the light on your face
Let it shine
Just let it shine
Let it shine

Stop being so hard on yourself
It's not good for your health
I know that you can change
So clear your head and come round
You only have to open your eyes
You might just get a big surprise
And it may feel good and you might want to smile, smile, smile

Don't you let your demons pull you down
'Cause you can have it all, you can have it all

Hey let me know you
You're all that matters to me
Hey let me show you
You're all that matters to me

Hey let me love you
You're all that matters to me
Hey so come on yeah
Shine all your light over me

Shine
Take That

This is so Aleina. (:

Are you mine?
Are you mine?
Cause I stay here all the time
Watching telly, drinking wine
Who'da known, who'da known
When you flash up on my phone
I'd no longer feel alone
No longer feel alone.

Who'd Have Known
Lily Allen

My first NAPFA Gold! :D

Aww, a newbie won the Australian GP!

Come on, Kimi, what are you doing.

You know how so many stories, fan fiction and chick lit have this line in them:
"He suddenly caught sight of the two of them in the shop window/mirror/train glass door, and saw how much they looked like a couple."

I did have such a moment, but romance and love never took a step in it.
I caught the Sight, a fleeting reflection in a SBS bus door, and thought,
"This is where I start. How much we look like I've achieved what I want."

You, with your smiling, cunning face, turned towards mine;
Me, with my stoic stare straight ahead, unblinking, unflinching.

Cunning in my head beats cunning in your smile.

Do you think He made it that way? Made it difficult to be good?

If He did, then you suck.
(You suck anyway, so what does it matter.)

I'm looking at my new necklace, with the ring on it, our ring on it, and I'm happy.

Married to God.
It just so happened I thought of this phrase, and then I saw it on VP's blog.
I'm not plagiarising! I swear! (:

The previous post is a lot more subdued than I wanted it to be. Damn censorship.

You'd better stop bringing along excess baggage, or I'm quitting.

I mean it.
She makes my life screwed up.

MOONLIGHT OKAY.

NAPFA was cool.
For my last NAPFA ever (assuming I don't retain), I'm on my way to a Gold.

SBJ was as perfect as perfect can be.
I didn't do it on my own. Someone carried me. I'm sure of it.

Whoever you are, I'm getting Gold for you!

"Accompany me leh..."

Stage direction: MIM turns away.

Sam Mendes is my new favourite director!
And. Ethan. Hawke. is. hot.

The Winter's Tale was such an awesome experience!
Thanks Xuan for sharing it with me (:

Blood dance.

I am not bloody dancing with you.

Mim is getting more and more real now.

I can run, and yet I can't.
Move, legs, move. Stay, heart, stay.

This sucks.

Kill, mind, kill.

Huiyu, where's the big words on my blog?!

I hope you're moribund.

I know I didn't use that right.
I don't care.

He's still trying.
He's still trying.
He's still trying.
He's still trying.
He's still trying.
He's still trying.

I'm not safe yet.

She brushed her fingers on the surface of the film separating her from her love. Her world. Her home.

The playground was too noisy.
The absurdist plays were being written: right then, right there.


The day when Sophie slaps Mim, will be the day Mim kills a human being.

Assay.
Make me.

Happy 23rd day of the month.

I have no qualms about hitting you, really I don't.
I see it happening so much in my head I think I have enough target practice.

UNDERSTUDY, heh.

Sharing, eh?!

Scribbling my comments in gibberish in the margin, gibberish I made up myself.

I'm really wondering whether I should warn them about you and your antics.
I feel the obligation, the duty.

Candy did us this favour, I should pass it on.

OH YES. You remind me of Madonna.

No wonder seeing/hearing you is so irritating.

Mm mm, mm mm very very much! (:

Someone warn the next generation that as you grow older, the world gets smaller.

My sister's friend's cousin's primary-school-classmate is my current classmate.
True story.

And I keep seeing people I know on random blogs.

"Don't mess with my balls cos' my balls will mess with yours,
and you won't like it one bit."
- Gunther

Alright, this is quoted so it's not by me. I repeat, NOT by me.
But, it's awesome.

I must admit, I'm really uncomfortable with using expletives on my blog, yet I'm in a dilemma.

I don't like using stars/blanks/dashes to hide words, and I don't like replacing the profanities with tamer words...
...but I wonder what people think when they read my blog...

Make up your mind with a capital M.

The curse of M.

Everything, is never only about the physical.
So grow up already.

You Are Spirit



You are resilient, hopeful, and inspiring. You have a lot of emotional, physical, and mental energy.
You nurture and nourish yourself. You know that you need fulfillment and downtime if you want to be your best.

You stay present in every moment. You don't allow yourself to be distracted or flustered.
You appreciate the life you have been given. You embrace all that is beautiful in the world.

Ahhh. (:

Are You Mind, Body, or Spirit?

Her hair twisted up on a Qing Dynasty hairpin;
fair skin singing of crystal valleys;
svelte silhouette draped in the finest silk;
gentle voice dripping with syrup;
.

Just another day in the Bait Manufacturing Co.

Noticed.

I really like how saying "Get back to where you came from." to your face
has the equivalent of saying "Go to hell."

Only, only for you.

Censorship taught me that there's no perfect replacement for the word "fuck";
just as there's not perfect replacement for your monstrosity:

it's the one and only.

AVA Camp 2009 was a banzai miracle!
Please last. :)

Games
Forfeits
SIXTEEN YEAR OLDS
Lights out!
Stars!
Censorship -.-
Breakfast heh.
Amazing Race! What laughs.
CHEERING :D
Confidence.

I wanted to do this because I wanted to remind myself that when some people say they care, they don't actually do.

寧 is playing mgames.

MY GUY SIDE

[x] you love hoodies
[x] you love jeans
[ ] dogs are better than cats
[x] its hilarious when people get hurt.
[x] you've played with boys on a team
[ ] shopping is torture
[ ] sad movies suck
[ ] you own a XBOX
[x] you played with Hot Wheels as a little kid
[x] at some point in your life you wanted to be a firefighter
[ ] you own a DS PS2 or SEGA
[x] you used to be obsessed with Power Rangers
[ ] you watch sports on TV
[ ] gory movies are cool
[ ]sometimes you go to your dad for advice
[ ] you own like a trillion baseball hats
[ ] you used to/do collect pokemon
[x] baggy sweat pants are nice to wear
[x] its kind of weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people
[x] green, black, red, blue or silver are one of your favourite colours.
[ ] sports are fun
[ ] you sometimes talk with food in your mouth
[ ] you sleep at night with your socks on
[x] you have fished at least once
[ ] you have a penis

TOTAL= 11/25



MY GIRL SIDE

[x] you like to shop
[x] you wear eyeliner
[x] you wear the color pink
[x] sometimes you go to your mum for advice
[x] you consider cheerleading a sport
[ ] you hate wearing all black
[x] you like going to the mall
[ ] you like getting manicures and/or pedicures
[x] you like wearing jewelery
[ ] you cried watching The Notebook
[ ] skirts are a big part of your wardrobe
[ ] shopping is one of your favourite hobbies
[x] you've seen Star Wars and don't like it
[ ] you do/did gymnastics
[x] it takes you around one hour to shower and get dressed
[x] you smile a lot more than you should
[ ] you have more than 10 pairs of shoes
[x] you care about what you look like majority of the time
[x] you like wearing dresses whenever you can
[x] you like dancing/do dancing
[x] you like high heel shoes
[x] you used to play with dolls as a kid
[x] you like putting makeup on others
[x] you like being the star of almost everything
[ ] pink is one of your favourite colours

TOTAL= 17/25

"The beautiful thing about you is that one day you'll become ugly."
reads my dyslexic head, from Tiak's post.

But, it makes sense.

Nickelback, Kerli, Aleina, My Chemical Romance and Kelly Clarkson understand me.

Last beverage → Milo
Last phone call → Ma
Last text message → Zilin
Last song you listened to → 頻率 by 苏打绿
Last time you cried → 11 Feb

HAVE YOU EVER:
Dated someone twice → Nope.
Been cheated on → Um, nope.
Kissed someone & regretted it →Nope.
Lost someone special → Yeah.

IN THE PAST MONTH HAVE YOU:
Fallen out of love → Nope.
Laughed until you cried → No.
Met someone who changed your life → No.
Found out someone was talking about you → I don't need to find out to know.

How many people on your top friends do you know in real life? → All of them,
How many kids do you want to have → Two. (Girls? :) )
Do you have any pets → H and Henry.
Do you want to change your name → No.
What time did you wake up today → 5.30am.
What were you doing at midnight last night → Sleeping.
Name something you cannot wait for → June outing!
Last time you saw your father → Last night.
What's one thing you wish you could change --> Income inequality.
Have you ever talked to a person named Tom --> Wow, no.

What's getting on your nerves right now --> gastric pains.
What's your real name → Chiang Lin
Elementary/Primary School → Temasek Primary School
Middle/Secondary School --> Presbyterian High School
High School --> Nanyang Junior College.
Hair color → Black
Long or short → Long
Are you a health freak → No! Who wants to arrive at the grave in mint condition?
Righty or lefty → Right.

FIRSTS :
First surgery → Aged two.
First piercing → Non-existent and proud of it.
First best friend → Can't remember. but the first friend i made in PHS is WEI LI!
First sport you joined → Swimming
First pet → Fish.
First vacation → Thailand.

CURRENTLY :
Eating → Nothing.
Drinking → Milo.
Waiting → For motivation to get on with life. Properly.

YOUR FUTURE :
Want kids? →Yup.
Want to get married?→ Duh.
Careers in mind? → Psychologist :D

HAVE YOU EVER :
Kissed a stranger → No.
Drank Wine/Beer/alcohol → No.
Lost glasses/contacts → No.
Ran away from home → Nope.
Broken someone's heart → I think so...
Been arrested → No way!
Cried when someone died → Yes. And do dreams count?

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
Yourself → Depends. On a lot.
Miracles → YES!
Love at first sight → NO.
Heaven → Yes yes!
Santa Claus → Of course!
Kiss on the first date → No.
Angels → Yup!

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY :
Is there one person you want to be with right now? → Yes.
Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? → No.
Do you believe in God? → YEAH!

Happy Belated Birthday, Annette!
I can't believe I forgot to wish you :(

Looking at the calendar, I couldn't help but see how close we're getting to Drama Night. Again.

Will you be coming this time?

What with all the latest talk of social groupings, outstanding individuals and conformity (or lack thereof), I began to look back on my past years. Of special mention has to be last year, new school, new class.

And I realise, I've grown; even if it was only from an initial decline in stature of mind.

Blogger doesn't have privacy options a la Livejournal; this is where my real challenge begins.

TBC

Well rain cancelled the Cross Country, wasting my four hours of extra sleep.

But looking back on it, it was actually quite educational. Really. Cos' we got to see something we rarely get to see or bother to notice in an urban setting:
HYDROLOGICAL CYCLE

There was throughfall, raindrop splash, bankfull discharge, and then some. (:

1. How will you hold your marriage ceremony?
[X] Traditional wedding ceremony (Chinese tea ceremony is a MUST)
[ ] At ROM
[ ] Grand Wedding Dinner in a high-class restaurant/hotel: EWW
[X] Church wedding ceremony (All-white church!)
[ ] Say vows in a hotel
[X] Say vows else where: maybe if we have a secret special place.

2. Who will you invite?
[X] Family and Relatives
[X] Close Friends
[X] All friends
[ ] Colleagues (unless they're friends too)
[ ] Primary school mates (unless they're friends too)
[ ] Secondary school mates (unless they're friends too)
[ ] Poly/JC/ITE/NS mates (unless they're friends too)
[ ] Neighbours
[ ] Everyone you know
[ ] People you dont know

3. Name 5 top qualities you want in your marriage partner
- loves God!
- loves me!
- listens and respects
- shares all weal and woe with me
- faithful, caring and sweet

4. Name 5 top "MUST NOT/NEVER HAVE" in your marriage partner
- violent streak
- smoking
- drinking
- gambler
- heart of stone

5. What ring would you get?
BLACK DIAMONDS! I wouldn't mind diamantes either; in fact, I'll just choose that.
But still call it a black diamond ring :D

6. Describe your wedding ceremony.
A very simple affair where everyone enjoys themselves;
Vintage white lilies + colourful daisies + bright sunflowers;
Love songs by The Submarines;
HELIUM BALLOONS in every colour;
Homecooked simple dishes;
DANCE FLOOR!

7. How would your wedding suit/gown look like and be like?
Black wedding dress! :DD
Tube top with minute organza sleeves;
VERY puffy floor-length skirt.

8. What song(s) (if any) would you play at your wedding?
Dance to "Dare You to Move" by SWITCHFOOT!
"Swimming Pool" by The Submarines;
"Human" by The Killers
"慢舞" by 瑞恩
"Everytime We Touch (Candlelight remix)" by Cascada
"Only Hope" by Mandy Moore

9. If you are to spring a surprise question for your partner on the wedding day in front of everyone, what will that be?
"How do you know that you'll always love me even till death do us part, that your love will not diminish as time ages, and as I change?" - by Rachel; AWESOME question.
"Will you still love me if death doesn't do us apart?"

10. What word(s) would you want to hear from the lips of your partner out of the bottom of his/her heart on such an important day?
"You will know, by how I hold your hand; I held it before, I hold it now, and I will hold it come what may. We will go through joy, sorrow, laughter and pain together; because I hold your hand, I won't let you fall."

** EXTRA QUESTION!!**
Are there any other elements you want to add to your wedding ceremony?
SHOOTING STAR SHOWER :D

Show Luo is in Singapore! (:

I'm not the kind to get jealous over others' fantastic results.
I'm the kind to get pissed over others' fantastic results gotten through ill means and/or façades.

Chinese was, well, was. Just was, if you get what I mean.
Just be happy it's over , just be happy it's over.

Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got the seed

You said move on
Where do I go
I guess second best
Is all I will know

'Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes

You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do I get better
Once I've had the best
You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the waters I will test

He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
He pulled me in
I was disgusted with myself

'Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into...

You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it I was burned
Oh I think you should know

'Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Oh won't you walk through
And burst in the door
And take me away
Oh no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay

Thinking of You
Katy Perry

MMY.

Linology!

***********FOOD-OLOGY***************

What is your salad dressing of choice?
Mayonnaise!

Where is your favorite sit-down restaurant?
Mama's! (Can sit unglamly somemore.)

What food could you eat for 2 weeks straight and not get sick of it?
Rice?

What are your pizza toppings of choice?
Ham, mushroom, cheese (more please!), pineapples.

What do you like to put on your toast?
Nutella or butter and jam.

**********TECHNOLOGY***************

How many television sets are in your house?
Two

What color of cell phone do you have?
Strawberries-and-cream. Okay, okay, red and white.

***************BIOLOGY******************

Are you right-handed or left-handed?
Right-handed

Have you ever had anything removed from your body?
Lymph nodes.

What is the last heavy item you lifted?
Tables.

Have you ever been knocked unconscious?
Nope.

************CRAPOLOGY**************

If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die?
No, so I can continue living my life as a dream. Aleina knows what I mean.

If you could change your name, what would you change it to?
Heidi, Sydney, Adele, Faena, Leia or Fia. Can't decide!

Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1000?
No!

************DUMBOLOGY******************

How many pairs of flip flops do you own?
Two.

Last time you had a run-in with the cops?
Non-existent.

Last person you talked to?
Pa.

Last person you hugged?
Rachel, was it you? (:

**************FAVORITOLOGY****************

Season?
Autumn; it's not too hot and not too cold, not too bright and not too dull, not too static and always changing.

Holiday?
Korea! Best travel mates, best tour guide, best outfits, best food, best company waiting for me at home. Australia runs a close second best.

Day of the week?
Friday; TGIF! Sometimes I love Monday too, for reasons unknown even to me. I really mean love.

Month?
December! Holidays + Christmas + Fellowship = Pure Joy

***********CURRENTOLOGY*****************

Missing someone?
Yeah. Don't mention it.

Mood?
LOUSY. Block test grades and embarrassing drama sketch.

What are you listening to?
Just Dance by Lady GaGa. Actually, the music just stopped.

Watching?
The Dreamcatchers!

Worrying about?
1. My attitude, character and approach towards school, because it's beginning to suck. A lot.

***************RANDOMOLOGY*****************

First place you went this morning?
Transitia

What's the last movie you saw?
Madagascar 2, I think.

Do you smile often?
More than ever now. (:

***************QUESTIONS***************

1)Do you always answer your phone?
No! People trying to reach me will know :P

2) It's four in the morning and you get a text message, who is it?
Gotta be God, since my phone is switched off.

3) If you could change your iris colour what would it be?
VIOLET. Or pure BLACK. Awesomeness.

4) What flavor do you add to your drink at Sonic?
Hedgehog.

5) Do you own a digital camera?
Yup!

6) Have you ever had a pet fish?
Pa has, not me.

7) Favorite Christmas song?
All I Want For Christmas Is You

8) What's on your wish list for your birthday?
More songs, esp My Chem! Better grades, I guess. Actually, nothing much; I realise I'm pretty contented with Life (: Except for my atrocious grades. Oh, and my Halo.

9) Can you do push ups?
Not properly.

10) Can you do a chin up?
Nah.

11) Does the future make you more nervous or excited?
Nervously excited.

12) Do you have any saved texts?
Plenty.

13) Ever been in a car wreck?
No, thank God.

14) Do you have an accent?
Singaporean, duh.

15) What is the last song to make you cry?
Halo

16) Plans tonight?
Hydro Tut 3, email script links, attain peace.

17) Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom?
YES! :(( So many times last year. Thank God (and thank You) that I'm awakened, refreshed, realigned, and ready to face anything that comes my way.
*throws You-can't-get-me-down look at the Devil*

18) Name 3 things you bought in the last week
Hairclip, ice-cream, dinner.

19) Have you ever been given roses?
Yeah, my first roses too :D Thanks Shane for your support at Drama Night '08.

20) Current worry?
My f-ed up attitude towards school.

21) Current hate right now?
I can say I hate that person, when actually I know I'm having fun.

22) Met someone who changed your life?
Yes! JESUS! :D
And yes! The Devil! D:
Does Halo count? :)

23) How did you bring in the New Year?
Feeling the rush of fresh air overwhelm me as I was assured that 2008's unfortunate happenings were well and over.

24) What song represents you?
Thinking of You, Halo, Rehab, Decode.

25) Name three people who might complete this?
*shrugs*

26) What were you doing at 12 AM last night
Printscreening damn Drama scripts.

27) What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up?
"Homework...not done..."

How old are you going to be when you get married?
Put an X in every box that applies to you; add up all the x`s.

[X] You know how to make a pot of coffee
[X] You keep track of dates using a calendar
[ ] You own more than one credit card
[ ] You know how to change the oil in a car
[ ] You do your own laundry
[ ] You vote every election
[X] You can cook for yourself
[ ] You think politics are exciting
[ ] You balance your own checkbook
[ ] Your parents have better things to say than your friends

Total: 3

[X] You show up for school/college/work every day early.
[ ] You always carry a pen in your pocket/purse
[X] You've never gotten a detention
[X] You have never smoked a cigarette
[X] You have never gotten completely trashed
[X] You have forgotten your own birthday at least once
[X] You like to take walks by yourself
[X] You've watched talk shows.
[X] You know what 'credibility' means without looking it up
[X] You drink coffee[caffeine] at least once a week.

Total: 9

[X] You know how to do the dishes.
[X] You can count to 10 in another language.
[X] When you say you're going to do something you do it.
[X] My parents trust me
[ ] You can mow the lawn
[X] You can make adults laugh without being stupid
[X] You remember to water the plants
[X] You study when you have to
[X] You pay attention at school/college
[X] You remember to feed your pets

Total: 9

[X] You can spell 'experience' without looking it up.
[ ] You work out on a regular basis.
[X] You clean up your own mess
[ ] The people at Starbucks know you by name
[ ] Your favorite kind of food is take out
[ ] You have gained weight since middle/high school
[ ] The first thing you do when you wake up is get caffeine
[X] You can go to the store without getting something you don't need
[X] You understand political jokes the first time they are said
[X] You can type quickly

Total: 5

[ ] You have realized that the weather forecast changes every hour
[ ] Your only friends are from your place of employment
[ ] You have been to a Tupperware party
[ ] You have realized that no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job
[ ] You have more bills than you can pay
[ ] Most of all your friends are older than you are
[X] You can say no to staying out all night
[X] You use the internet every day
[ ] Your wardrobe hasn't changed in a while
[X] You can read a book and actually finish it

Total: 3

I'll get married at the age of 29.

A look in the eyes.
An ignoring presence.
A hidden phone.

Here we go again.

I think, what I would say is

"Only because we're smart enough to make ourselves scarce where we know we're not wanted."

P.S.: I take much delight in your fluffiness.

I can't believe I got their trust again, to be given this chance again.

Aleina is my consultant in my renewed mission.
Aleina, I won't let you down.

Got?!

Why do I keep running into you?!

Happy second day of the third month of the year.

The fact that I only realised today's the day in the middle of the morning goes show how I'm well and truly over everything that happened. (:

Remember those walls I built
Well, baby they're tumbling down
And they didn't even put up a fight
They didn't even make up a sound

I found a way to let you in
But I never really had a doubt
Standing in the light of your halo
I got my angel now

It's like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
It's the risk that I'm takin'
I ain't never gonna shut you out

Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace

You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo

Hit me like a ray of sun
Burning through my darkest night
You're the only one that I want
Think I'm addicted to your light

I swore I'd never fall again
But this don't even feel like falling
Gravity can't forget
To pull me back to the ground again

Feels like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
The risk that I'm takin'
I'm never gonna shut you out

Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace

You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo

Halo
Beyoncé


This song is really, really apt for describing two people in my life (besides my family and friends, of course (: ).

One being Jesus Christ Our Lord, who is really the bestest best friend anyone could have (and more!). Even when I'm up to my neck in assignments and stress, even when I say I feel no connection in prayer, I still feel that He's always there for me. As I walk through the darkest valleys, He truly is my Halo.

Second being, well, you. I daren't say who you are, because sometimes I fear the comfort and strength you provide me with is nothing but my imagination. But I know that, at the very least, you are my friend, and in that I take heart. You, too, are always there for me - I'll always remember how your email saved me that night. You, too, are my Angel-with-a-Halo.
Obviously, you are not the "you" featured in my previous posts, that being the source of all my anger; you being, well, my Halo.

I'm crying now; MMY /:

Sometimes I have these dreams about the things you do, and they mix with the things you really did, and I wonder if they're colouring my view of you.
Then, I realise it doesn't matter since the real and virtual happenings are so similar.

You are my antithesis, and the reason I'm joining the Slay.

XX says: please?
XX says: don't you trust me...

You're a real fuck for saying that, you know? I think, you're one of the last people I'd ever trust; the fact that I once did just makes it tragic.

Why should I trust someone who thinks nothing of buying *things* -- no, actually you are so full of yourself because you buy them deliberately.
Why should I trust someone who's full of empty promises? (Pun not intended.)
Why should I trust someone who goes out with two different people on two consecutive days?

Someone else's eyes, someone else's arms, someone else's obvious moves...
I bet I cheated on you.

The management requests that no questions be asked.

How can I decide what's right
When you're clouding up my mind?
I can't win your losing fight
All the time

Nor can I ever own what's mine
When you're always taking sides
But you won't take away my pride
No, not this time
Not this time

How did we get here?
Well, I used to know you so well
But how did we get here?
Well, I think I know

The truth is hiding in your eyes
And it's hanging on your tongue
Just boiling in my blood
But you think that I can't see
What kind of man that you are
If you're a man at all

Well, I will figure this one out
On my own
(I'm screaming, "I love you so.")
On my own
(My thoughts you can't decode.)

How did we get here?
Well, I used to know you so well, yeah
But how did we get here?
Well, I think I know

Do you see what we've done?
We've gone and made such fools
Of ourselves
Do you see what we've done?
We've gone and made such fools
Of ourselves

There is something I see in you
It might kill me
(It might kill you.)
I want it to be true.

Decode
Paramore

[ ] Gotten detention.
[ ] Gotten your phone taken away in class.
[ ] Gotten suspended.
[ ] Gotten caught chewing gum
[ ] Gotten caught cheating on a test.
Total: 0

[X] Arrived late to class more than 5 times
[X] Didn’t do homework over 5 times.
[ ] Turned at least 3 projects in late.
[X] Missed school cause you felt like it.
[ ] Laughed so loud you got kicked out of class.
Total : 6

[X] Got your mom / dad etc. to get you out of school.
[X] Texted people during class.
[X] Passed notes.
[ ] Threw stuff across the room.
[X] Laughed at the teacher.
Total : 4

[ ] Pulled down the Fire Alarm.
[X] Went on Myspace , Facebook , Xanga , etc. on the computer at school.
[X] Took pictures during school hours.
[X] Called someone during school hours.
[X] Listened to an iPod , CD , etc... During class.
Total : 4

[ ] Threw something at the teacher
[ ] Went outside the classroom without permission.
[ ] Broke the dress code.
[X] Failed a class.
[X] Ate food during class.
Total : 2

[ ] Gotten a call from school.
[ ] Couldn’t go on a field trip cause you behaved badly.
[X] Didn’t take your stuff to school.
[ ] Gotten a detention and didn't go.
[ ] Stuck up your middle finger at a teacher when they were not looking.
[ ] Cursed during class loud enough so the teacher could hear.
Total : 1

[X] Faked your parents signature.
[X] Slept in class.
[ ] Cursed at a teacher to their face.
[X] Copied homework
Total: 3

Multiply by three:
20 X 3 = 60%

"I screwed up 60% of my teenage life."