BLACK PRINCESS DOWN

You won't understand what I'm going through. It's bad enough being the only one. I still have to face the shame of not being up to expectations. AND dragging percentages down.

Weili, I now understand how you felt that time. I really don't feel like talking to them.

Okay, recent happenings.

- some prelim papers returned. They are slooow.
- something that was WTH bold underline italic. but I shall put it behind me. :) thanks, Millie.
- had a fun time with Mushroom, Nuclear, Yuting and Rach today!

- most most most most importantly, I got a pay rise! :D

I can't believe I forgot to post this.


PHOTO OF THE YEAR :)

It's uncanny how much I have in common with the boy in Almost, But. The song speaks volumes to me.

Like the boy in Almost, But, I used to write letters after letters after letters to, yeah. Everything the boy in the song did and felt, I went through too. I suppose the poetry was my method of expression. I suppose that's why I cried after listening to Almost, But.

But listening to Almost, But was a kind of liberation, not a painful reminder.

Just want to thank all those who stood by me during those times - Mich, Weili, Yuting, Rach.

Like a final full-stop on the end of the sentence of my misery. :)

Right, I know this post sounds emo; don't worry, I'm not.

I have a new love!

It's called Almost, But by SLEEQ.
(Ho, nearly got you there, didn't I?)

This song is LOVE. Listen to the song and read the lyrics at the same time. I almost cried.


I was shy to make my move
That’s why I cried when you left my world
My life was full of loneliness
Unless I see u walking home
That’s when I started writing letters after letters after letters
It seems my papers running out faster

Gotta be gotta be my everything
You’ve got what I want
Gotta be gotta be my everything
You’ve got what I need
Gotta be gotta be my everything
Tell me what can I do
When I’m really really crazy over you

I’ve never cried like this
The words I wrote for you
I noticed you from far
But all you see is like I don’t give a damn
Boxes piling up
Are you going off
I’m telling you its too tough
When I feel I almost had you
But

Once upon a time, there was a boy and a girl
This is so typical, they were so typical
For example boy loves girl
But girl doesn’t know that boy loves her coz
The boy is shy, the boy is why
The girl still stands strong livin’ her life
They were very good friends having very good chances
The man in boy, pretends that he had no love for the girl anyway
He keeps to himself in the place that he stays
He writes letters, one after another, another
Ways he possibly could saying that
Gotta be, gotta be my everythin'

That pressure was so big that he grew many pimples right
And sings to a song that he likes and it goes like this

I’ve never cried like this
The words I wrote for you
I noticed you from far
But all you see is like I don’t give a damn
Boxes piling up
Are you going off
I’m telling you its too tough
When I feel I almost had you
But

I know she’s moving on
From me she’s gotta hear this song
I know that she’ll be okay
And I know that I’ll be loving her so
She’s my soul
My everything in life I could have
I just can't let her go

It was another Monday, and the boy was working at MacDonald’s
Saving up money to buy a present
A present that was meant for the girl
It was her birthday the next day
He memorized his final script and wrote the last letter
Hoping that it was a bit better, than the one before
That’s what it’s for, he’s ready to make the first move, ready to score
But
Suddenly, in front of him, ordering fries and a cheeseburger
Was none other than the one he wanted
The girl with another guy, she smiled, he winked, they both said, Hi
He was dumfounded, jaws dropped to the floor, closed it
And ran straight out the door,
And back to his crib where he cried and cried,
Cried and cried, and cried and cried

I’ve never cried like this
The words I wrote for you
I noticed you from far
But all you see is like I don’t give a damn
Boxes piling up
Are you going off
I’m telling you its too tough
When I feel I almost had you
But

I’ve never cried like this
The words I wrote for you
I noticed you from far
But all you see is like I don’t give a damn
Boxes piling up
Are you going off
I’m telling you its too tough
When I feel I almost had you
But

Zi-lianing in progress!


Jialing & me


Me & Germaine


Jialing's & mine slippers. The sand is hothothot!


Me & Shan


Germaine, Joe, CC & me


Jiangwei, Shan, Germaine and CC


Shan trying out blading.


My shadow.


The view from under the tree.


EMO KID


Germaine & CC


CC & I


Pretty trees & scenery


Germaine Chua Shampoo Ad!


Ger


Germaine, CC & I


Me, Germaine & CC


The 6 of us - Me, Shan, CC, Ger, Joe & Jiangwei.


Photos are finally up!
Thanks, Cindy!

Happy Birthday Jialing!

keep checking back here; will be editing more.
IT'S CALLED FUN :)

4 Faith Class Outing to East Coast Park!

It's been a looooong time since I felt so relaxed and easy; so HAPPY. I think some of it is the sun. Sunshine does a soul good.

So do friends! :)

I'd post pictures - there's a great many pretty ones. But Blogger keeps cutting my connection during photo-uploading. This explains why my DE photos aren't up either. Oh well.

Let's see what we did.

- cycle
- sandwich + nachos time!
- meet at macs
- stare longingly at the Mocha Mudslide in Coffee Bean & Tea Leaf
- arcade
- McCafe to order Iced Lattes
- blading! I cycled again :)
- collect Lattes
- cycle back to macs for more syrupy goodness
- watch and help Ms Tang try out blading
- beach photo shooting! joe got caught by the rubbish man~~
- chatting in bus 13 on the way home

*big smiles*

I wouldn't mind another visit to East Coast sometime soon. :D

Some funny/interesting things said:

"It's called fill in the blanks."
"Yoghurt has more culture than us."

"Psychiatrists see other psychiatrists."
(Germaine) It hit me quite hard when she said this, as I'm really considering psychology as a career in the future. Then again, I've seen my share of psychiatrists and counsellors. :) In fact, I owe it to one of them that I've (almost) decided on this career path - I'm determined to understand and help people much better than she did for me. :/


Now, time to STAR-DEE (just to make studying sound a little less jarring on the ears).

Reality Review

I have a rocking good life now; you're not in it.



by the way
SURVIVOR is going to China.

o.O

Economics prelim was a big WHEW today. Everyone thought it would be really tough, that we would need a whole lot of luck + God on our side just to survive.

Actually, we could have just studied for the paper from our E. Geog textbook. Wham.

MONOPOLY with the Econs class is great. We can apply our economics knowledge, hahaha.
Played one round yesterday and another today. I won today!
$2011~~


Got a little something in the mail from Rachel..

What equals 100% in life?
Here's a little mathematical formula that might help answer the question.

If
A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z
is represented as
1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26,

then
H-A-R-D-W-O-R- K
= 8+1+18+4+23+15+18+11
= 98%

and
K-N-O-W-L-E-D-G-E
= 11+14+15+23+12+5+4+7+5
= 96%

and everyone knows that
A-T-T-I-T-U-D-E
= 1+20+20+9+20+21+4+5
= 100%

BUT, look how far the love of God will take you:
L-O-V-E-O-F-G-O-D
12+15+22+5+15+6+7+15+4 = 101%

Therefore, while Hard Work and Knowledge will get you close, and Attitude will
get you there, it's the Love of God that will put you over the top!

and a little something from me...

N-E-P-O-T-I-S-M (pulling strings/靠关系）
= 14+5+16+15+20+9+19+13
= 111%

B-U-T-T-K-I-S-S-E-R-Y
= 2+21+20+20+11+9+19+19+25
= 146%

and therefore pulling strings and butt kissery will take you a whole lot further.
I'm such a dishonest girl. :P

but seriously,



are you feeling the pain yet?
answer the call.

You Belong in Paris

Stylish and expressive, you were meant for Paris. The art, the fashion, the wine! Whether you're enjoying the cafe life or a beautiful park... You'll love living in the most chic place on earth.

*wide-eyed smile*

LOVES! I'm not so sure about the "stylish and expressive" part, but I do love France!

You Are A Lily

You are a nurturer and all around natural therapist. People see you as their rock. And they are able to depend on you. You are a soothing influence. You can make people feel better with a few words. Your caring has more of an impact than even you realize.

- Strike out anything that doesn't apply to you.
- Bold the five to ten that best apply to you.


APRIL: Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. (too true.) Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. (me-di-a-terr. not.) Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. (I'd like to try, but I'm not sure I'm actually good help.) Brave and fearless. (I'm sure.) Adventurous. (I'm sure.) Loving and caring. (keke.) Suave and generous. Emotional. (boohoohootearsscreamscriesshoutssmiles) Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see. (I'm sure.)


from Valerie's.

Retainers are on. They hurt.

Teachers' Day Class Party!

Shan & me.


For once in my life I'm tall!


Enough said.


十二莲花
第一可怜罗莲花 出生风场昧快活
凄惨落泊就是我 做牛做马也得拖
第二可怜莲花酸 苦命莲花心头酸
后母不为仔打算 想要嫁人也久长
可怜呀莲花呀 实在可怜代


第三可怜莲花姐 坏命做工到半暝
头烧目晕那是病 破病也得去赚钱
第四可怜莲花代 好坏人客阮招待
十分招待嫌阮坏 要打要骂又要塞
可怜呀莲花呀 实在可怜代


第五可怜莲花种 有人实在无同情
也无外多钱阮用 要打要骂又要种
第六可怜莲花城 流落欢场歹名声
后母爱钱无爱仔 迫到阮呀无路行
可怜呀莲花呀 实在可怜代


第七可怜莲花红 阮是可怜歹命人
后母当阮不是人 害阮痛苦一世人
第八可怜莲花头 流落欢场昧出头
后母顾前无顾后 害阮暝日目屎流
可怜呀莲花呀 实在可怜代


第九可怜莲花时 做了这行已几年
可怜家人无相见 阮嘛不知企叨位
第十可怜莲花光 归暝做工到天光
想到有厝唔汤返 终身再也难见光
可怜呀莲花呀 实在可怜代


十一可怜莲花怨 想到身世真哀怨
后母迫我做这款 越想心内越超烦
十二莲花无了时 堕落黑暗难见天
少年赚钱是一时 老来怎样过日子
可怜呀莲花呀 实在可怜代


you can find this song in the sidebar IMEEM player.
可怜呀莲花呀 实在可怜代~~