masquerade; paper faces on parade

Monday, April 30, 2007

PHS Dance Society

WELL DONE!

all our bruises, blue-blacks, muscle aches, dirrrty feet were worth it.

even though i didn't get any "special performance feeling" during the actual SYF, i think it was much better than all our practices put together.

and after that was even better.

we really bonded, many pictures taken and lots of smiles and laughter. i can finally feel i belong to DS, that i'm not just a newbie senior that no one needs to care about. thanks for the memories, girls! love you all so much. <33

it is amazing how a thing of simplicity can put so much joy in your heart. when we got on our bus to return to school, lo and behold, who's next to us? the dancers in the performance before us! we didn't even know which school they were from, and probably will never see them again. but we waved and wished them good luck like we've known them forever.

why can't the world be like that?

there will always be people who put you down and make you feel small, but hey, we're as big as we feel. so dancers, keep your head high, know you're the best! there's no need to prove it or battle the people who don't believe that; if they don't, it is perhaps just their loss. we know it in our hearts and that is enough!

2:08 AM

Saturday, April 14, 2007

eagles

rainbows

rocks

grass

flowers

rain

rivers

streams

sunshine

SOARING

12:18 PM

TARZAN AND JANE WERE SWINGING ON A VINE

XD

12:15 PM

and you (a different you)

if you're trying to make me jealous

it's not working

but my attempt

is much more succesful

ha.

12:13 PM

i haven't talked

to you

in such a long while

when can i say

hey

long time no talk

again?

i saw you today

and you saw me

too

you turned

and our eyes met

for just a moment

that moment

i'll hold

for life

and then you

turned away

while i looked on

i found no emotion

in you

at all

not when we

were looking

at each other

nor in

your look

away

so i

left the school

for home

i feel as though i've left something behind

in school

and it's not just the books in the locker

i miss you

12:10 PM

Monday, April 9, 2007

What Hurts The Most

Rascal Flatts

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house

That don’t bother me

I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out

I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while

Even though going on with you gone still upsets me

There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok

But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most

Was being so close

And having so much to say

And watching you walk away

And never knowing

What could have been

And not seeing that loving you

Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go

But I’m doin’ it

It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I
alone

Still Harder

Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret

But I know if I could do it over

I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart

That I left unspoken

What hurts the most

Is being so close

And having so much to say

And watching you walk away

And never knowing

What could have been

And not seeing that loving you

Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most

Is being so close

And having so much to say

And watching you walk away

And never knowing

What could have been

And not seeing that loving you

Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you

That’s what I was trying to do

perfect description

of the origin

of my tears

7:26 AM

it would be plain

just saying

"i miss you"

and complicated

the issue is

i'd never say was

the onslaught of memories

with you in each

hurts me so bad

have you forgotten

the recent trip

that day of fun?

we four schemed

cheekily

and sneaked away

i still taste

the fun

on my tongue

ah

i see another

memory now

four us again

without Her Majesty

though

the treat given

at the shopping mall

so close to us

i wonder if you

still keep

the scrapbook

our talks of the prom

i still hear

every word in my head

we made a pact

we said

we'd go together

how about at

the further mall

that first touch of electricity?

the Mother's Day trip

hardly was i

so happy

i can't see

how three years'

friendship

can just disappear

like that

burnt to dust

i don't know

if you know

i'm talking about you

i don't care

if you get offended

by this

i just want you

to know

you're always

a special friend

you're

The Friend to me

i just

want you to know

I MISS YOU

i'm crying now

7:22 AM