masquerade; paper faces on parade

Wednesday, July 26, 2006

May 2007 - Pirates Of The Caribbean: At World's End

Christmas 2007 - The Chronicles Of Narnia: Prince Caspian

yum.

12:01 PM

to all who thought i looked depressed and thought i was depressed in one way or another...

I'm fine.

Really! =) =) =) =) =) =)

I've always been fine.

I tell the truth most of the time. People'd be surprised.

With good reason.

Yahaha. From Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Man's Chest! Mmm.

11:54 AM

Sunday, July 9, 2006

sad? no, i'm not.

happy? not that either.

letting go comes in a whole package. there's a box of happiness, a box of sadness, a box of anger, and a box of sad smiles.

i can choose. and i chose the sad smiles.

he looked so happy. and what right do i have to be so selfish?

why not let go?

so i called up the farewell co. and they sent me this hamper. nothing like the tall things you see at chinese new year, don't get me wrong. it's a pretty box, any colour you want. when i say any colour, i mean any colour. if i feel angry, the box is red, fiery red. if i'm happy, the box is pink, angelic pink. if i'm sad, the box is blue, the gloomiest blue. when i put on a sad smile, the box turned white. whiter than snow, paper, or icing sugar. whiter than white.

beautifully white.

white. it can be the colour of mourning, or the colour of angels. it is the colour of sad smiles. happy for him, sad for me.

i've never stopped liking him, don't get me wrong. letting go doesn't mean throwing away your heart, however it may bleed. you can't stop a person from hoping. it's the hope that keeps her alive.

6:01 AM

Saturday, July 8, 2006

down the steps they came
the prince and his fair dame
while this spiteful child
sat beside the aisle
staring at them
with daggers, so damned

jealousy into her it hacked

turned her little black heart black

tears rolled down her face

of a feeling, fallen from grace

he wouldn't want her, oh

not with rage in her, boiling so

she would never be

not like the other girl's glee
if to him she served

what he so dearly loved

he'd be happy

by a little, so would she

to make her happiest

would involve selfishness

painfully, she stood

away a careful one foot

watched his smile

for one last while

then she left

in her heart a big wide cleft

now he was happy

and so was she

for him.

12:40 PM

down the steps they came

the president and his first dame

while this spiteful child

sat beside the aisle

staring at them

with daggers, so damned
jealousy into her it hacked
turned her little black heart black
tears rolled down her face
of a feeling, fallen from grace
he wouldn't want her, oh
not with rage in her, boiling so
she would never be
not like the other girl's glee

if to him she served
what he so dearly loved
he'd be happy
by a little, so would she
to make her happiest
would involve selfishness
painfully, she stood
away a careful one foot
watched his smile
for one last while
then she left
in her heart a big wide cleft
now he was happy
and so was she
for him.

12:40 PM

shivering
though it wasn't cold
crying
though my face was dry
sad
though i was happy
angry
though i felt calm
jealous
though i was proud of them
it was a disaster
though it was perfect
i spoilt it all
though i did nothing

11:30 AM

Tuesday, July 4, 2006

tagged by weili (the great element Wl) to do this quiz. yes ma'am!

Three names you go by: chiang lin.lin.*future christian name*

Three parts of my heritage:chinese.english.hainanese [yes weili, same as you! =) ]

Three things that scare you: no family.no friends.no love

Three things you're wearing now: purple t-shirt.gray pants.glasses

Three of your favourite band/musical artistes right now: The Click Five.Kathryn Scott.Mya

You want in a relationship (other than love): care.loyalty.trust.honesty.things in common.fun.joy.

Two truths and a lie: i like *ahem*.i don't get jealous easily.i've been through counselling.

Three physical things from the opposite sex that appeal to you: he should be taller than me =P.decent hair, neither too nerdy nor too spiky.charming smile!

Three of your favourite things: guitar.milkshake.literature!!

Three things you'll really want badly now: *ahem*.for life, family and friends to go back to when i was in lower sec.no more hunger in this world

Three places you really wanna go on vacation:disneyland in florida.movie world in australia.tachibana st. in miyazaki

Three things you wanna do before you die: hug *you*.make friends with all my friends all over again.confess and repent

Three people you'll want to take this quiz next: mei.sean.joolee

2:49 AM

Monday, July 3, 2006

today's the 2nd again. i've come to have a love-hate relationship with the 2nd of every month. if it's a weekend i don't really mind.

but if it's a weekday at school, something's bound to happen.

between you and me.

i can't explain it. it's been like that since, you know. it's either something to hammer me to pieces, or something that makes me really happy. which of course, sooner or later, will bring me down from an even greater height to smash to a million bits. once more.

there is this flame of hope within me, that some day, something that makes me really happy will result in a real happy ending. not fly-up-to-touch-the-clouds-and-smash-you-down-on-the-rocks-again temporary happiness. of course, this hope of mine is only about as large as a matchstick glow.

still, a lit matchstick can burn down a house.

but i need kerosene. =P

today marks 1 month after you made me really happy. no doubt, fly-up-to-touch-the-clouds-and-smash-you-down-on-the-rocks-again temporary happiness, but still happiness. and it's a weekend, which means i don't face you, which means anything horrible about to happen doesn't have the chance to do so. yet.

make me really happy again? real happiness?

11:25 AM

happyBELATEDbirthday charles! +D

4:35 AM

tagged by weili (the great element Wl) to do this quiz. list 8 things you see in your future lover...

well.

#1. he's a male. i'm not, you know.

#2. he loves me. a lot. i think this one's pretty obvious, right? i mean, if he's my lover, he ought to love me. =D

#3. we have at least one thing in common. or it'd be really hard to get along with each other if we're forever arguing.

#4. there's trust. and no jealousy. at all.

#5. there's the element of FUN. he makes me laugh, i make him laugh. =)

#6. peace between him and my family and friends. because my friends and family are very dear and important to me, and if he doesn't get along well with them, well, i may have to...

#7. 100% loyalty on both sides.

#8. he is caring. for me. for my family. for his family. for my friends. for his friends. for animals. for this world.

tagging the next 5 to do this quiz...

1. mei

2. michelle l.

3. wanzhen

4. cindy c.

5. joel f.

4:33 AM

Sunday, July 2, 2006

James
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Location: The New Testament
Hometown: B.I.B.L.E.

Occupation: servant of God
Written: The Book Of James

More About Me
I am a servant of God and of the Lord Jesus Christ.

One of the more important written works of mine is The Letter Of James. I've written this letter to all God's people scattered over the whole world.

Outline of the contents:
Introduction
Faith & Wisdom
Poverty & Wealth
Testing & Tempting
Hearing & Doing
Warning Against Discrimination
Faith & Works
The Christian & His Tongue
The Christian & The World
Various Instructions

Profile of my new friend James. I've read his work. Really meaningful!

Get to know him better. Come to the PHS Chapel Basement next Thursday at 2.30pm!

See you there!

4:27 AM